Nadini Ret ma..

Every thing around me you create so beautiful
Leaving them behind always becomes painful

Hannah Montana,Zack n cody, life with Derek
The sad part is now I will loose the track

The association no matter how short
It is always for me hard to abort

Sometimes I feel God is very tricky
And assigned a mature job to a pranky

They say life is an adventure
This time it taught me how to be an orator

Instead of machine now I deal with human being
To interpret and explore their sense of learning

How to remain calm and make notes
And cut the square first to make a paper boat

Not every wonderer is aimless,
Not the one who seek truth beyond image beyond tradition
One need guts to be like ramkumar nikumbh, Katherine Watson

Change is constant but memories will remain
And my wish god has made almost certain
Yes, am coming on banks of river sabarmati again…. :-D

I think of you..

I think of you when am awake
I think of you while I am asleep
I think of you when I dream
I think of you when I smile
I think of you when I bath
I think of you when I wait
My every thought occupies you
I see you in every object
Spend Max time with you in weekend
With not so happy parents on other hand
I think what will work with you
And, I ask why it would
Or why it would not
I see nuances of every thing
You keep me addicted
You keep me glued
I think I analyze
I rethink I reanalyze
I think of you now, next, rest
I think of you
And your subtle reactions
Only thing matters is dedication
I think of you
You, you and you
my project reverse_auction ;-)

u r nt alone..

(Copied from orkut community lot of crap like this u will find there just have look)
Lnt may call us soon .. an attempt to PROVE that

PROOF :

1. lnt sacked 500+ employees



2. lnt became the gold partner for SAP



3. banks crashed in US

4. now they[ banks ] dont have much money to employ pll and work

5. so they have to rely on IT now.. that too on asian IT markt

6. in market there will more projects on SAP

7. from (2) and (6). lnt will get more projects now than before



8. then we [ fresher] are ideal for put into projects as their billable amount will be reduced and fresh mind work better. so they are surely gonna rely on fresher than experienced .. so only all company sacked experienced sleepers they asked them to sleep in their home and gonna ask us to work there [ from (1) ]

9. new CEO sudip banerjee is vetran in IT
Mr. naik and mr. magapu are not IT based leaders

10. in his first meeting he said that : i will make the things move which are in pending so he also plans to call us

11. from ( 7 ) , ( 8 ) and ( 10 ) ..Surely LNT will call us very soon

THUS PROVED



PS : sorry if this hurts some one . sorry if some detail is wrong .. this is just to boost confidence among us .. thank u

I love Abad :-)

I look out my window what do I see,

A b'ful river passing by

above it a brilliant sky( and pantaga too!!)

Blue birds humming or gong of worships

Rain drop dips or wind blow trees

Multitudes of people running on to their destinies..


I look into my window what do i see

A TFT screen slim and slick

And a coffee cup icon to double click

Testing Formatting Documenting Debugging

And to do all this without knowing java scripting


People say a lot can happen over coffee,

we say a lot more can happen over coffee cup too!!


Although being not too sound on techie side

Feel very positive about becoming a PL in a stride


A long vacation down the line

'll make my teeth to get alingned

An orthopadic will repair my broken wrist

'll learn cooking is life mein major twist..


These days am getting blues of leaving this city

Everyday wasnt the same but my stay here has made my memories of abad more rich and colorful. My love and longing to be here is more intense now.

May god make me to come back in the same office,

on the same floor and

if am really blessed on the same desk too!!!!

Entry for March 26, 2008

He could not see in to my eyes, otherwise he will understand,


I was facing his back, and wanted to tell him something..


Something very important …


This was something that I have to tell him, before its too late.


Time was flowing like a river in front of my eyes,


But The situation was something where a small whisper is louder than noise


Some how I gathered all my strength leaned towards him


touched and pushed him forward…


and then there was no need of saying anything


as he understood it all...


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That my exam paper is stuck between his back and my bench…

The StrangerFebruary 29, 2008 )

She was getting engaged.


And all I could do was standby and applaud along with all. I didn’t dare open my mouth for fear of saying something stupid.


Something like “I love you”.


I remembered the other day when she had come to me with red eyes. Her “best friend” was getting away. It had never mattered to me that her best friend was a guy. I thought I was above such things. But her tears awoke the sin of jealousy in my heart. Fighting it, I had consoled her and given her chocolates to eat. She proceeded to rest her head on the crook of my arm. And formally fell asleep. I checked at her baby like innocence.


But now, I applaud; I felt something stabbing at my heart.


She was getting married.


I saw her coming down stairs checked out in her bridal jewelry. Never I had seen looking this pretty. I saw her taking the seven rounds of sacred fire with the man I had come to hate, holding his hand. I saw her exchanging garlands with him.


She was a total stranger to me now.


I was standing near the car when they both come over to me. I wondered what they wanted. I wondered how to say farewell to depart.


Nevertheless, as my daughter and son in law touched my feet, I blessed them. She was openly crying, I told her not to worry. That I’ll always be here.


She responded by hugging me.

And I could not stop tears anymore.


(copied from external sources!! :-D)

Inside those 8 corners.. January 6, 2008

about 2 and half years ago..( this is just to make rhyming ow like a typical girl i can tell u date also..)

inside a blanket wiping tears from my eyes,

i made a silent but wish to thy,

to make these years pass in a second fly..

the place almost sound like a jail to me @ first place,(with iron jali @ entrace, queue in mess, dinner bell system, etc etc..)

they made it where all girls could lavishly stay..( with wi-fi, TV, indoor out door sport facilities etc etc..)

the place which no one of us liked in the beginning,

gave us so much of love laughter and learnings..

wrestling in TV room or whistling in lobby

the face of horrible black cat or bruise over my body..

c o c o , c a n a l, c a n t e e n, k i t l i..

every memory is so sweet and lovely..

that wish is to satisfy,

and indeed these years passed like a flash of my eye..

but it is really becoming hard for us waving this place final good bye..

Entry for January 06, 2008

weight i gained is drained..

skin tanned..

back bend..

am happy that i have successfully completed theory exams without a single night out, not missing my serial on single day, even had bath regulerly..lols..because my daddy says all you need to be sincere duriong exams not serious...

Entry for January 06, 2008

weight i gained is drained..

skin tanned..

back bend..

am happy that i have successfully completed theory exams without a single night out, not missing my serial on single day, even had bath regulerly..lols..because my daddy says all you need to be sincere duriong exams not serious...

Entry for December 04, 2007

after dumb Ds of my 6th sem,

here i present energetic Es of this sem!!!

the sem i actually started after returning from East,

dumping companies like Ellitecore and E-infochip,

7th sem has been Exceptionally Easygoing...

In Evaluation of my assignments(bindly copied-grade B)

sometimes surprisingly got assidous As..

My Expences were on top,(I'd rather say my daddy's)

I was an Ectomorph b4 but now adding couple of pounds in it..

Companies with T common in it made a mistake

By Enjoining me with them...

but by the time they will realize this Error,

the reply would be !!!!!REQUEST TIME OUT!!!!

this is not The End..

Exams abhi baki hai mere dost....

n i dont wanna play oneday match this time,

so am Expelling myself from here till hrithik's next bday..

(wish him Happy Anniversary on 20th of this month thru my blogroll)

so Enjoy,

keep missing me..

'll be back soon..

love....

GANESHA SAYS (23 sep 07)

PISCES: Major opportunities for gain start coming your way from the end of September. Neptune is your own planet and has influenced your mental processes, moods and attitudes. Many ups and downs in the intervening week but after the mars neptune trine, it will spell smooth sailing for the millenium year end.

Thank you very much ganesha for over exceedingly kind to me,
Giving me everything at the most unexpected moment of my life,
I dont know how much the BASIC+HRA+CONVEYANCE+PF+something+something matters,
but the satisfaction i hear in my parents voice is most invaluable...

My confined place....

As exams are around and i'll be leaving this place in few months, this entry for the place, which gave me impetus to study like no other place did so far...

yes, it is MY confined space or place whatever u call it, in usual hostel language we call it khopcha.

actually there are many such in hostel, gals who have habit to read outside from their rooms has each one reserved for them. My reserved one is exactly near my room sharing same wall, in the picture on the left hand side of mine. I should say, i have two but other one i visit only in afternoon as it lessen probability for me to get into my warm and cozy bed and sleep over my book... contrary it is near to internet room which prompts me to come here and surf every now and then... lolss...

i don't remember exactly when i started reading over there, i had rough memory sitting there for a while but since then it has become integral part of my life and my learnings....

(on a private note, gals here used to tease me a lot for this. that makes me laugh on their crazy interpretations..)

so, dear khopchaji i owe u BIG. i owe u big for getting me passed in all internal(ah!! am exaggerating), externals,viva, practical exams, you stimulate me to study hard and at the same time fast!!


Thank You for being with me in early mornings and late nights, in scortching afternoon or in windy evenings making the word NIGHT OUT possible in my dictionary.(n if i happen to have any bf then i want him to be silent,supportive and submissive like u !!!) I love you. More than my very own room, more than my cozy bed, and a lot more than place where am sitting right now, because u made me learn how to utilize my time (and this place how to waste when u really need to utilize... lols..)

Entry for October 28, 2007

long, slim and tidy as she looked in the mirror,

the dark brown hairs

cut close follow the shape of her head,

leaving elegent stem of her neck exposed....

a peacock green dress, with exact matching jwellery,

blend of green n blue bangles, everything was just perfect!!

the diamond in her forehead sparkeled off mirror,

entering her eye and an epiphany arise,

thousands of words, millions of feelings,

and countless memories passed without making a single sound..

she could see glimpse of her in her face,

and feel her in her dress..

no one can make her look b'ful and attractive,

as much as she used to...

and she was the one whom she missed most on that night...

eldest and most b'ful, intelligent, and mature among us four..

A treasure of our family, little far from us..

I love to hear when ppl say i look like her,

I want every pinch of myself to be like her...

her bday is coming up on 8th of next month..

so wishing her here little in adavance...

love..

Entry for November 19, 2007

HER DIARY

Sunday night I thought he was acting weird.

We had made plans to meet at a cafe to have some coffee. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment.

Conversation wasn't flowing so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk, he agreed but he kept quiet and absent.

I asked him what was wrong - he said, "Nothing."

I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry.

On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving.

I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say, "I love you,too."

When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore.

He just sat there and watched TV; he seemed distant and absent.

Finally I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed.

I decided that I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep.

I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep.

I don't know what to do. I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else.

My life is a disaster.

HIS DIARY

Today India lost. DAMN IT.

Entry for September 20, 2007

finally proved as an apt,
thanks to those who believed in me,
double to those who ever doubted,
and at the top of that to the angel who checked my paper,
-you have brought an answer to all rebuffs, ridicule, and rejections of my life,
turned my reverie in to real

Entry for August 30, 2007

Before few days i saw a living reptile passing from platform,

thought it will soon disappear from that shabby place,
in fact behaving like a shaggy to make it out of it,
we were busy in pace of our own life...

After few days,
My CPU started stinking like a cesspit,
Thought something must be crushed below it,
before that noxious miasma covers our whole room...

We made check all over it
then a scary thought arose....

"as there is nothing below it, something must be there inside it"-awwww

so a rigorous effort started
with spoons, screw driver, scissors, knives....
although we both were too afraid to make it..

CPU was dissected,
covers were taken aside,
motherboard pulled off,
that noxious odor was getting even stronger,
Finally the fan cabinet opened,
& we saw a living lizard burnt... yekkk

Entry for August 10, 2007

august Starting....

Sinus Stroking.........

wisdom tooth Setting.....(wisdom tooth me ?? god i think u shud wait for 15 16 years from now or may be 50 -60)

finger tips Stinging ........

a Sedulous is being a Schlepper......

Scribbling on papers....

listening the Screed of lecturer's.....

all in all pakhi is being Slothful.....

i think i need a break....

BREAK??? how can u even think abt it.....(papa)

Entry for August 10, 2007
august Starting....

Sinus Stroking.........

wisdom tooth Setting.....(wisdom tooth me ?? god i think u shud wait for 15 16 years from now or may be 50 -60)

finger tips Stinging ........

a Sedulous is being a Schlepper......

Scribbling on papers....

listening the Screed of lecturer's.....

all in all pakhi is being Slothful.....

i think i need a break....

BREAK??? how can u even think abt it.....

Entry for August 02, 2007

Two little feet,

so tender and sweet


That have walked with the angels

On heavenly streets


Ten little fingers, and ten little toes,

With every new day continue to grow.


One little mouth that sings to our Lord.

And two little ears to hear His word.


One prefect baby for us to love,

With wisdom and guidence from our Father above.

dedicated to: Rudra

Doc's Prescription June 26, 2007)

Certified that Mr./Miss ____________ _____ , studying in your college, is suffering from 'time-bound' illness. Due to this, he/she will NOT be able to attend college more than 4 hours a day and 3 days a week. Any attempt to stretch beyond this timing will lead to severe health problems. The losses to the study due to medical reimbursements will be far more compared to the gains made by stretching beyond 4 hours.

It is also warned to keep my patient away from any kind of shocking news such as " Come over weekend..", "Let's study on holiday..", " Leave cannot be granted..", "Don't bunk....", "Don't go to canteen...." etc. which can directly lead to heart strokes.

In view of the above, it is strongly recommended to adjust your college time-table in accordance with the convenience of my patient.

Sd/-

Dr. Impatient

Cyber Clinic

the D's of my 6th sem ( June 21, 2007)

hey, it was my last DAY of 6th sem so i think i am supposed to write few lines about it.... rihgt?

when i started after DEPARTURE of my loving ones i thought it is going to be a DELIRIOUS experience but my this DILEMMA slowly DISINTEGRATED after making just few steps ahead..

it made me DEPRESSED, DISCOURAGED, DEMORALIZED, DEVITALIZED, DISGUSTED, DIS HEARTED, DEJECTED,DAUNT, DEPLETE, DISGRUNTLED..



made me DILIGENT to DIM WIT...

when i analyzed... what made it to be like so... may be my ATTITUDE... or APTITUDE.... and may be the IMPETUS was lacking so everything became IMPROMPTU .....

i think am writing this in high DUDGEON.... i fear i am not going to DEFRAY high prize for it...that will really make me DOLEFUL...

sorry, 6th sem but i DETEST u like anything

Entry for June 17, 2007

today... he has perched up me for the better view..

down the years he will show me life's beauty..

he will show me its imperfections...

and more importantly, he will show me how to fly to a nest of your own..

celebrating life

celebrating fathers day..

today,with touch of love in air,
started my day with my boyfriend head in my lap..

was with him since morning four,
talked with him little sweet, little sour..

tried to read each page of his mind, asked him why he given me hard time,
he was silent and still, told me will leave me tomorrow be this time..

thus, six months relationship came to an end,
i still wonder why we became acquainted and then friends..

tomorrow, he will be very far from my sight,
today am going to pass with him one last night..

ok,ok before you get me anymore wrong,
here I declare I was with my book of EDES whole day long..

Friday May 25, 2007

WHAT’S SO ROMANTIC ABOUT GROWING OLD WITH SOMEONE?

WHEN DOES OLD BEGIN?

WHEN YOU START CUTTING DOWN THE SUGAR?

Or

WITH FIRST SACHET OF HAIR DYE?

FOR THAT MATTER WHEN DOES THE YOUNG END?

YOU WON’T KNOW IT EVER.

NOT EVEN YOUR EYES MeET ACROSS CROWDED ROOM.

THE MAGIC IS STILL THE SAME AS THE MOMENT YOU MET!!

Entry for May 05, 2007

"We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls."

Entry for May 15, 2007

Today,in the early morning,

When I opened my eyes,
I saw a beautiful face up in the sky,

I wondered it was an illusion or my imagination

I hurriedly ran out of my room,
To catch the glimpse of that boon,

The face has gone from the sky,
Everything disappeared in a second fly,
The sun was still to rise,
And the dark night was to pass by,

I came back sat calmly on floor
And saw that the window was actually closed,
A soothing voice whispered in my ear,
If you believe its everything dear..

a new start

will post the posts of 360 here,
if i would have written this year the same thing it may be different but i want to keep it.
it shows my thinking process year to year. so let it be there.

comments criticism are invited.